well it been years since i wanna update my blog again....
now is the years of 2009 10 november.....chaos happen in my life again....well my bestfriend..... i cant reveal her real name but i put initial for her...(donut)....
this is what i really wanna tell donut.....
the first time i arrived in this college i had no one to trust to....i still remember u r the first person to gave me a helping hand ...from that day onwards ,secretly i told myself i want to know you more and be your best friend....
later everybody start to mix around....i never got the chance to knew you more than the superficial facts of you.....
until a lot of things start to happen....a lot of drama which you and me are really tired off once.....
i get the chance to know you more...i m so happy about or i should say excited all about it....
the feeling was like Finally i found somebody i can put my trust on too....finally i had a friend!!!yeah a men halleluyah~the period we spent together really precious to me....and i promise i ll never forget it.....
a poem for you~
i was lost in a chaos full of hatred lonely world,
you appear to me like a little glowing girl,
with you hand ,with your smile
which brighten up my world......
we been together like there is no forever,
i miss your stories, i miss the real you.....
you are just like my sister that i ever have,
that is why i care about you...
it is not a matter for you to change,
too much of noise polluting you...
too much thoughts disturbing you,
i hope i can be the vaccum to suck out all the noise,
to give you peace,
i hope i can be the transmitter to inhibits those black thoughts in you...
i try to cry...
in an attitude style...
i shown you my heart ,
but you never care,
my heart was shattered to pieces....
but i never wanna give up...i wont give up!!!
because you are my sister....
i never tell you in the front because i m scared that
u will be more afraid of me.....
now......
what i really pin up my hope is...
i hope that you will return to me again...
as my sister...
dear m.s......
when you are ready to come back to me as a sister...
i will shouted....OKAERI....one-chan
but currently i will say kiotsukete ...simpai janaiyo~
p.s: if one faithful day god hve let you see this message and you really wanna come back....
okaerinasai...one-chan
5:55 AM
a poem for you~
now......
dear m.s......